so thankful.....

I have been a little off the past month or so... I know its just a phase I'm going through. I just wanted to say I am one lucky girl to have a husband who stands by my side and helps me get through these phases even if it hurts him... I'm so grateful that he doesn't give up on me and does anything to make me happy! I do love you, Tyler!

Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.9

Finally "really" happy!!

It has been forever since I have posted anything and I promise that I am going to be better!! We added a new bundle of joy to our lifes on July 10th.. Ryker Kenneth Scott Strickland! We love him so much so he is going to get his own post here shortly :) I just wanted to blog real quick that I am finally "really" happy!! In the past I have always been happy with my life but I just wasn't sure of where I was going or what I was doing... and in that time I was not a very good friend, lover or daughter. The other night I was sitting there feeding Ryker while Payton was doing my hair and talking to Tyler and it just hit me that I am really happy! I have found out who I am and what I want from life! I just feel at peace with myself... I don't know how to explain it.. It was like taking a ton of weight off my shoulders... I still am not perfect by any means! I still stress about things, I still say the wrong things, but that is me and I am really happy with that :) I love my little family and I love the family that we are becoming!! Tyler is seriously my best friend I tell him everything (even when it's bad things about him!) But I love how we can talk and have some really deep conversations... He gets me like no one else ever has! I love my kids more than anything in the world!! Payton has taught me so much about life, how she acts with her cousin Kenidee is so sweet and tender it always brings tears to my eyes to see her helping Kenidee and interacting with her. Whenever she sees me crying she always tells me "sweetheart it will all be ok, remeber laugh!" and she will start tickling me. That little girl is my rock and has got me through so much!! Our new little man Ryker is the sweetest thing ever! I love that he starts to cry and I just speak his name and his eyes light up and he starts to smile!! He is a strong little boy and is always smiling. He just has this thing about him that you know everything is going to be ok. God blessed me with 2 amazing kids! And now that I know who I really am I have been a better friend, a better mom, daughter and wife. I know I have rambled and probably haven't made much sense... it's hard for me to explain this feeling I am just really truly happy :)

Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.9

?

Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.9

Not feeling normal....

Today I am 27 weeks! I am super excited that this pregnancy has gone by as fast as it has but... this last week has been very hard for me..I went to the doc on Monday and he told me that everything looks fine but once I hit 30 weeks to be prepared at any time to have this baby!! He told me not to be stressed and to pretty much go to work and do nothing else.. well that is easier said then done when you have a 2 year old child I can't expect her to lay in bed all day with me! Well since Monday each day I feel more and more not like myself.. I get all ready for work hair and make-up and dressed nice but then I end up washing my face and putting sweats on and throwing my hair in a pony. I have also been getting really sick from about ten o'clock at night until I get home and finally fall asleep I don't ever throw up but my stomach kills me. The doc always told me he thinks that I am going to go early but 10 weeks early that's crazy!! I am up worried sick that my little boy is going to have to spend the first month in the hospital it is making me sick!! And my wonderful husband has been so good with me and my moods but I don't think he fully understands what is going on... I know he doesn't want me to go early and to have the baby in the hospital I know that but he doesn't feel the baby kick in a weird way and all the things that are going on in my body, that's not his fault but it's just hard to explain to him that something not normal just happened and I don't know what to do about it or if it is really serious and I don't want to make him worry either. I'm just not feeling myself and I hate it!! Hopefully the lil man will be good and wait 10 weeks till I am full term I would even be happy with 8 or 9 but to come in 3 weeks I am not ready so stay in there little man, Mommy loves you and wants to see you oh so much but I can't wait 10 weeks :)

Been a while...

It has been a while since I have posted anything and this one won't be very long but I figured it is better than nothing. So here are just a few highlights
~ We got married!!!
~ We found out we are having a baby BOY!!!
~ We are going to buy a house!
~ I love my new job at american express!!
So those are just the highlights it seems like a lot more has been going on! Tyler is still working out of town... So trying to look at houses is hard he is only home every other weekend so we jam our days with looking at houses! We are hopefully going to decide this weekend if we are going to buy or if we are going to build a house in my parents neighborhood! The only down thing about building is that it more than likely won't be done till the baby is a month or two old but the plus side more time to save money! So we will see we know everything will work out the way it is suppose to! That is all for now short and sweet but we are SSSSOOO Happy!! I have the perfect hubby who does anything to make me happy, an amazing daughter who reminds me to laugh and to not worry about the little things and how it doesn't matter how a person looks or act you need to say hello and smile to everyone, and a handsome little man that we are so excited to welcome in July :) Life is good......

Payton is going to have a lil bro or sis!!!

Yes it's true, we are expecting another little bundle of joy the beginning of August!! Even though it was not planned we could not be more excited!!! Payton thinks she is having a brother, so we will see. Now for the sad news I was pregnant with twins but I did lose one :( We are sad but also grateful that there is still one healthy baby there... Other than that me being pregnant has been great! I am very lucky with Payton and this little one I do not feel sick at all! Don't really even feel prego, besides this one I seem to be showing a lot faster! But that's fine by me I love the cute preggers belly! I am nervous to have 2 kids close in age but also very excited that they will be close!! I know Payton will be a great big sister! She already loves to kiss my belly and tell it hello :) And I know Tyler will be just an awesome dad to the new one just as he is to Payton! I just love my growing family!!